Last Tick Of The Watch

I want to write a poem
But i cant, so much sorrow in my head

I feel empty, out of ink
Where will i go without you i sink

I go on but your in my thoughts
Every where i go i see you around

Poem by: Blogger


Today I was putting on his watch to go to work, and I realized that its not moving date is stuck on 20th and time shown is wrong, the battery had died on it. I looked back today on my blog to December 20th, and it was the last time I spoke with him on the phone ever, and yesterday was exactly 6month from out last phone conversation.

I read that blog, I recall talking with him and he was very distant and still angry at me and with resented me very much, he said some very mean words and rude comments, but I deserved them all at that time as I wasn’t a best companion nor a boyfriend to him.

I had forgotten about it, and the fact that it was 6 month and his watch was there blowing the whistle today as a reminder, was no co-incident as much as I like to brush it off.

I am lost in between two worlds now, one wanting to be sober and other wants to go back to my ex. it hurts inside not seeing him and not knowing a single thing about him for 6 month now.

I have been sober on my main bottom line of no sex for 5 months and 3 weeks now and I have a few days on my bottom line of no contact with any one and reading the wanted ads.

So help me god still.


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