Stronger Chain

My recent sculpture in form of my expression.
its chains that were thrown out and they were rusty and damaged, i washed the rust off and welded them together to be strong enough to support a table, (metaphor of my life story) it turned out to be much more amazing and eye catching than i thought. i cant wait to paint and see the finish product.

like these chain find your weaker links and make them stronger by bonding with it, and making it stronger to stand stress of time and support the weight of other around you and support its own weight.

to update on my situation I'm still sober on my main bottom line and trying ever so hard not to contact the EX, there has been some close calls with chastity in the eyes where i stared at some one in social gathering and it felt awkward and i was trying to stop my self the whole time from imposing my self on them, i want to be sober for few more months before writing new bottom lines to start dating or i should keep sober longer (will consult the therapist over this)

i went to SLAA support group class today, and i learned others behaviors that was something i had never scene, one person was addicted to sugar so they would abuse sugar and junk food and feel bad the next day and would act out in sexual form. there was a new member from out of town who came down to get another class in a week because it was hard for them to move forward this week by just going to one support group class.

the reading was based on 1st step of SLAA

1. We admitted we were powerless over sex and love addiction - that our lives had become unmanageable.

life becomes unmanageable when a routine has taken over a life and now its in control of you, you might notice this or might not, it would be subtle at first then it would slowly take over you, only an outsider will see your character take this negative change and can call out this character defect for you.
you will see the character defect at first through examples of what you have done, but first sign is discharging it with excuses and denial then slowly you have to accept in order to move forward as you will commit the same acts of character defect over and over and hurt more people in the process.

i noticed that i haven't listed the steps on my blog i will write one with each one and perhaps a short description to help the ones who are still suffering and interested out there.