setting up

today i was setting up for the exhibition.

i relied on a friend who calls on me always for rides or to help him out for his job and even being a side kick on the shows he does.

Anyways but to make the story short he didn't come through, and i was left scrambling to find a person to help me out with the loading the truck and unloading.

finally i ask my parents and surely the dropped everything to help me, it was nice to realize that family is always there when you need them and friends can only pass the test of time to become true friends.

in the addiction front, i didn't feel or have any desire to act out or go cruising online, i was busy with the installation and part of me was already gratification by what people were saying about the installation as it was progressing.

but there was a moment when i sat in one chair and looked back on my arrangements on the floor i had a flash back of the coffee i had in that place two months before, and how helpful he was and supportive though the process, and he remembered that i like non dairy late. i don't know why i romanticized my self with this thought, when he is gone!!!!, but the only memories i have is the good ones, i rarely keep any bad memories of any one specially to go back and micro analyze it like this.

my therapist was right, that through building trust with your self and finding other ways to reassure your self that you are loved and desired specially inward love that is the power to a healthy well being

so do you love your self to begin and start loving other?

"keep coming back"