Lowest Abis

BABE I LOVE YOU, YOUR MY LIFE
HAPPIEST MOMENT STILL NOT COMPLETE IF YOUR NOT BY MY SIDE

YOUR MY CONNECTION TO THE SUN
YOU BY MY SIDE NO DARKNESS I CAN OVER COME

YOUR MY RAIN DROP, I AM A SEED
WITH YOU AND GOD, I WILL GROW SO BEAUTIFULLY

BABE I'M SO PROUD
THAT ONCE WE SHARED A BED AND YOU HUGGED ME SO BEAUTIFULLY

MAKE THE CONFUSION GO A WAY
AND WARMTH BACK IN MY HEART, SO SET ME FREE

AS I'M DANGEROUSLY IN LOVE WITH YOU
IF YOU FEEL IT, AS I CANT KEEP LOVING WITHOUT YOU

MY HEART SMILES just KNOWING YOU
IT FEELS SO GOOD SOMETIMES BUT HURTS BAD TO LIVE WITHOUT YOU

I LIVE MY LIFE FOR A HOPE, A CHANCE
& CLOSE MY EYES AND REACH, ARE YOU THERE WITH ME



I have taken two days of the mood depressant and have made me sicker so far, to the point that i throw up today again and i haven't eaten much,

i have scheduled an emergency meeting with the therapist after reporting the vomiting and dizziness.

i was in tears, while holding my head half way into the toilet and all i could think was him and how much i miss him in my lowest abiss.

i know i was instructed not to write about him and to think of him, but cant struck down a soul.

i will post later about the pills as i feel dizzy today.